Listening To Your Heart Rather Than Your HeadOctober 23, 2017
In my previous blog on synchronicities, I shared how there were a series of blatant signs leading me to a specific Yoga Teacher Training Program called Frog Lotus, in Bali.
However, shortly after the program started, energetically something felt off to me. Panic set over me as I realized that this program was not the reason I was supposed to be in Bali.
After some reflection, I came to the conclusion that I have the tendency to do something only if there is a clear end result (i.e. getting certified as a Yoga instructor). Because of this, I never would have let myself take a month trip to Bali if I wasn’t going to get something “tangible” out of it. I needed the Yoga Teacher training program to justify going to Bali, but it turns out that program was not the reason I was supposed to be there. I was called there for personal development and spiritual growth.
As someone who always looked down upon “quitting,” this was a tough pill for me to swallow. However, I knew in my heart that I had to remove myself from the program. The logical part of my brain told me to stay in the program, saying: “who are you to take a month off from adult life to be a bum and travel?!” It was a war between my head and my heart, and ultimately my heart won. Allowing myself to be okay with this opened a realm of possibility beyond my wildest imagination.
The minute I left the program my energy completely shifted and everything fell into place. I was invited to continue practicing yoga with the group in the morning and then had the entire afternoon to myself to explore.
Prior to my trip, while debriefing Christie Hefner, who at the time was in charge of Canyon Ranch’s nonprofit sector, I mentioned that I would be going to Bali for a month. She informed me that she had a friend that lived there and she would put me in contact with her. I didn’t think that I would be able to get together with her friend since I anticipated that all of my time would be spent in the yoga training, but, since I left the program I decided to reach out. In addition to making several recommendations of where to go and what to do, she put me in contact with a friend of hers, Steve, who was a yoga instructor living in Bali for the past ten years. When I explained my story to Steve, he immediately took me under his wing and served as a “spiritual guide” for me. It was like something out of a movie: each day Steve sent me a “clue” of an activity I needed to do, or place I needed to see, all of which had spiritual significance. It is because of Steve that I had the opportunity to explore Bali in a way that allowed me to connect with myself, with others, and the beautiful country. I met with a Medicine Man, a Balinese Priestess, and got to explore sacred parts of the land that are unknown to most. Had I not “broken the rules” I had set for myself and remained in the program, I would not have had the profound life changing experiences that I did.
So, what’s the moral of the story? Listening to your heart can be incredibly powerful and rewarding. If you have the courage to break away from what you think you “should” be doing and trust what your heart is pulling you towards, you will seize some of life’s greatest experiences and opportunities for growth.